Tired

After the weekend off, i felt really chill and ready for work until my next potential hols in 2 weeks that is~ i've been saving all my leave for the end of posting so that i'd be able to spend some quality time with my family in JB~ pls pls pls let it be approved. All the JMO's tell me "they can't not approve ur leave" but still... i'm such a worrywart~

But starting work today was bummer~ started off as a potential great chill day and ended as a really horrible day~ what went wrong went wrong~ OMG i am so thankful to MM for waiting for me till 6+ to fect me back as JH is on-call today~

Okie ppl in Sultanah Aminah or watever can just slap me~ at just 5 calls a month and lots of HO's in every ward we houseman's in the medical department are living a life of luxury as the MO's so often remind us~ i think they're just jealous~ But i can't help but feel jaded at the flow of things~ I'm getting bored at the daily grind of work and i'm horrified at doing something new~ i'm afraid of the uncertain~ i wanna no brainer job!But i'm just contradicting myself aren't I?

I'm hoping the new posting will bring me a new breath of life ~ fingers crossed~

Sometimes i seriously feel i'm becoming more and more dependent on my loved ones~

I cant imagine what i'd do without them~

Cos they breath life and joy into my life~

~ mushy but true~

At the end of a hectic working day it's great to just have someone share a joke, a giggle, to tickle till i laught till tears trickle down my cheeks, to share a hug, to annoy one another, to just be in the same space~ it takes a way all the stress

it lets me throw away all my worries and start the day afresh~

What would i do without my little stress ball~